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I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
Emma
21 December 199+
Pan asia
Loves Music Family
and People aroun me
About me: I'm a small girl in the big big world <3 & I'm weird but i like it
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
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Emma
21 December 199+
Pan asia
Loves Music Family
and People aroun me
About me: I'm a small girl in the big big world <3 & I'm weird but i like it
Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
New story to share..
Dear Foster Father,
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
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Thursday 26 September 2013 ( 20:44 )
New story to share..
Since I was a kid I'm facing alot of problem.. Yeah like they said "I might be young but I've been thru alot"
I grow up without a Dad,I grow up without getting enough of love,I'm hurt but I just keep it inside.. I dont wanna share my problem with anyone because I might annoy them,lagi pun dorg bukannya kesah pasal semua tu.
Macam-macam orang jaga aku masa aku kecik dulu,macam anak patung bertukar-tukar tangan,kejap orang ni jaga,kejap orang tu jaga & sebab tu jugalah aku hampir-hampir dirogol,kena amik kesempatan,tak terurus sangat. Semua pengalaman/cerita tu aku hadap seorang-seorang. Kenapa tak bagi tahu family? kalau aku bagi tahu pun apa dorang boleh buat? benda dah jadi kan? They never think about me,they never think about how I feel all they think is about them. Dulu aku ni beban je bagi dorang,sebab tu jadi macam tu "
macam anak patung bertukar-tukar tangan"
macam anak patung bertukar-tukar tangan"
Sampai sekarang dorang masih tak tahu pasal semua ni.. Pelik? Kenapa family sendiri tak jaga aku? (= Senyuman sinis je aku dapat bagi untuk soalan tu..
Pengalaman/kenangan masa aku kecik dulu lebih banyak pahit dari manis..
Dulu aku dilayan macam bukan anak kandung,dilayan macam anak tiri.. Ada benda yang tak kena je @ aku buat salah sikit je dah kena pukul,kena sepak terajang,parut kt pipi sebab tali pinggang semua tu aku da pernah rasa, Aku pernah kena pukul depan orang ramai,tuhan je tahu apa aku rasa masa tu.. Aku kecik lagi masa tu baru 8 @ 9 tahun kot.. Aku tak melawan,sebab aku hormat dia lebih tua & dia tahu apa dia buat.. Walaupun sakit aku biar je,ramai yang kesian kt aku masa tu hm atleast ada juga yang kesah pasal aku kan =) tapi dorang tak boleh nak buat apa.. Dorang cakap mugkin aku akan balas dendam bila aku da besar nanti~
Things never change till I'm in high shcool. Air mata peneman setia ketika tidur,sabar peneman setia ketika aku menghadapi semua tu..
Guess what,I'm a big girl now sumpah tak ada rasa dendam pun kt dalam hati aku,I just cant forget about my past.. I wanna be a good daughter,tapi macam masih kurang je bagi dorang,apa yang aku buat semua tak kena. Tak kesah lah apa pun dorang nak fikir/cakap,aku tak nak jadi anak yang tak kenang budi, aku akan bayar balik hutang aku sebagai anak bila diizinkan..
Sakit sangat,semakin hari aku jadi semakin sensitive & I like to be alone but at the same time I always think positive because everything happen for a reason, tak pernah pun aku cuba amik dadah,minum arak @ jual badan masa aku hadap masalah-masalah semua ni..
I always thank god for everything that happen dia lebih tahu apa dia buat I just follow the flow.. I just dont understand why hmm Kalau sampai ke tua pun Dia nak aku rasa sakit yang macam ni,aku terima je. I'll be strong as long as I can.
Semua tu buat aku nak jadi lebih baik.. Be a better person,a better mom,better wife.. I will never be like them,I promise to myself I can be better than them.. I'll make sure that my future son/daughter will never ever have a past like I do..
Aku buat blog ni bukan sebab nak burukkan mana-mana pihak,cuma nak kongsi apa yang aku pendam selama ni. Tak tahu nak kongsi dengan siapa,rumit sangat so many stories that I keep by myself.
No matter what happen I will always love them especially Her.. I know you think that I hate you,you just dont know that I really love you no matter what have you do..
I'm sharing this story with a tears on my eyes..
I'm sharing this story with a tears on my eyes..
Dear Foster Father,
Thank you for always be there for me,protect me & love me like a dad.
I love you so much & I miss you.
(Ng Kim Hui)
Dear Oppa,
Thank you for loving me,wanting me,care for me.
Thank you.
Her Story,
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