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Tried to take a picture; Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
Emma
21 December 199+
Pan asia
Loves Music Family
and People aroun me
About me: I'm a small girl in the big big world <3 & I'm weird but i like it
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
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ramblings of a teenage girl
Emma
21 December 199+
Pan asia
Loves Music Family
and People aroun me
About me: I'm a small girl in the big big world <3 & I'm weird but i like it
Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
New story to share..
Dear Foster Father,
Another sad story of mine.
Old as she was, she still missed her daddy sometimes.
I'm tired of crying dad,i really really missed you!It hurt me so much,I wish you know that dad.
Assalamuailaikum.
Hello there,
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
{/My Past... I can be better than them.. --
Thursday 26 September 2013 ( 20:44 )
New story to share..
Since I was a kid I'm facing alot of problem.. Yeah like they said "I might be young but I've been thru alot"
I grow up without a Dad,I grow up without getting enough of love,I'm hurt but I just keep it inside.. I dont wanna share my problem with anyone because I might annoy them,lagi pun dorg bukannya kesah pasal semua tu.
Macam-macam orang jaga aku masa aku kecik dulu,macam anak patung bertukar-tukar tangan,kejap orang ni jaga,kejap orang tu jaga & sebab tu jugalah aku hampir-hampir dirogol,kena amik kesempatan,tak terurus sangat. Semua pengalaman/cerita tu aku hadap seorang-seorang. Kenapa tak bagi tahu family? kalau aku bagi tahu pun apa dorang boleh buat? benda dah jadi kan? They never think about me,they never think about how I feel all they think is about them. Dulu aku ni beban je bagi dorang,sebab tu jadi macam tu "
macam anak patung bertukar-tukar tangan"
macam anak patung bertukar-tukar tangan"
Sampai sekarang dorang masih tak tahu pasal semua ni.. Pelik? Kenapa family sendiri tak jaga aku? (= Senyuman sinis je aku dapat bagi untuk soalan tu..
Pengalaman/kenangan masa aku kecik dulu lebih banyak pahit dari manis..
Dulu aku dilayan macam bukan anak kandung,dilayan macam anak tiri.. Ada benda yang tak kena je @ aku buat salah sikit je dah kena pukul,kena sepak terajang,parut kt pipi sebab tali pinggang semua tu aku da pernah rasa, Aku pernah kena pukul depan orang ramai,tuhan je tahu apa aku rasa masa tu.. Aku kecik lagi masa tu baru 8 @ 9 tahun kot.. Aku tak melawan,sebab aku hormat dia lebih tua & dia tahu apa dia buat.. Walaupun sakit aku biar je,ramai yang kesian kt aku masa tu hm atleast ada juga yang kesah pasal aku kan =) tapi dorang tak boleh nak buat apa.. Dorang cakap mugkin aku akan balas dendam bila aku da besar nanti~
Things never change till I'm in high shcool. Air mata peneman setia ketika tidur,sabar peneman setia ketika aku menghadapi semua tu..
Guess what,I'm a big girl now sumpah tak ada rasa dendam pun kt dalam hati aku,I just cant forget about my past.. I wanna be a good daughter,tapi macam masih kurang je bagi dorang,apa yang aku buat semua tak kena. Tak kesah lah apa pun dorang nak fikir/cakap,aku tak nak jadi anak yang tak kenang budi, aku akan bayar balik hutang aku sebagai anak bila diizinkan..
Sakit sangat,semakin hari aku jadi semakin sensitive & I like to be alone but at the same time I always think positive because everything happen for a reason, tak pernah pun aku cuba amik dadah,minum arak @ jual badan masa aku hadap masalah-masalah semua ni..
I always thank god for everything that happen dia lebih tahu apa dia buat I just follow the flow.. I just dont understand why hmm Kalau sampai ke tua pun Dia nak aku rasa sakit yang macam ni,aku terima je. I'll be strong as long as I can.
Semua tu buat aku nak jadi lebih baik.. Be a better person,a better mom,better wife.. I will never be like them,I promise to myself I can be better than them.. I'll make sure that my future son/daughter will never ever have a past like I do..
Aku buat blog ni bukan sebab nak burukkan mana-mana pihak,cuma nak kongsi apa yang aku pendam selama ni. Tak tahu nak kongsi dengan siapa,rumit sangat so many stories that I keep by myself.
No matter what happen I will always love them especially Her.. I know you think that I hate you,you just dont know that I really love you no matter what have you do..
I'm sharing this story with a tears on my eyes..
I'm sharing this story with a tears on my eyes..
Dear Foster Father,
Thank you for always be there for me,protect me & love me like a dad.
I love you so much & I miss you.
(Ng Kim Hui)
Dear Oppa,
Thank you for loving me,wanting me,care for me.
Thank you.
Her Story,
{/Love Story .. --
Thursday 14 February 2013 ( 19:52 )
Another sad story of mine.
It's about my love story or my feelings to someone that i love or like or crush maybe..
Okey story start now..
I have a crush on this one guy, kenal baru berapa bulan he seem nice to me, cute, funny, real man lah katakan. I know he like me,from the way he treat me, the way he talk to me, ect ..
He's one year younger than me,at first I'm like "Sorry he's not my taste" but I start to like him =) .
Muda setahun je it's ok, perangai dia lagi matang dari aku kot =D haha ..
So we plan to hang out last week tapi tak jadi & I dont know why.. He didnt tell anything or explain to me why. No phone calls, no whatsapping, nooo.. not anymore. I just dont know why -__-
I'm still wondering did I do anything wrong or .. I think I'm crazy!! Why can people just disappear like that without explaining anything to you. Buat aku rasa bersalah walaupun aku tak buat salah (-.-)
Mungkin dia ingat aku tipu dia kot, DP kt whatsapp aku guna picture mario maurer mungkin dia ingat mario bf aku hm macam lah tak boleh tanya aku kan .. Guess what dia remove aku dari FB yeah he did..
Aku selalu tak dapat orang yang aku suka @ sayang, walaupun orang tu ada perasaan yang sama kat aku tapi ada je perkara yang menghalang.
I guess bad luck in love life.
Humm it's okay, semua yang berlaku ada hikmanya =)
No hard feelings.
Her Story,
{/Daddy ... --
Wednesday 6 February 2013 ( 18:23 )
Old as she was, she still missed her daddy sometimes.
I'm tired of crying dad,i really really missed you!It hurt me so much,I wish you know that dad.
A bit emo this morning.. I missed him always & everyday,no one know how much i missed him not even my mom, friends or my other relatives. Pandai berlakon kan? Yeah that's me, tapi dalam hati tuhan saja yang tahu =) .. Tak semua orang faham apa yang sedang aku lalui, kecuali cerita dia sama macam aku..
Sakit & cemburu bila tengok kawan, cousin or orang lain ada ayah.. share problem with their dad, going anywhere with their dad, he is there to protect her daughter, love her.. Nak juga rasa macam tu =') ..
Orang kata kalau dah takdir, tak boleh nak ubah ..Okey aku redha ..Last wish.. Nak jumpa daddy while he's still breathing & while i still breathing..
Please don't take him away from me,dapat jumpa sekali pun tak apa =")
Her Story,
{/Let's Read ~ Read & Read ~ --
Tuesday 15 January 2013 ( 18:42 )
Assalamuailaikum.
Orang kata .. Tahun Baru, Azam Baru. Tapi azam saya sama macam tahun lepas tak berubah,banyak lagi benda yang belum terlaksana @ tercapai jadi tahun ni mungkin akan tercapai semuanya,Inshaallah :)
Cerita pasal semalam, I'm chatting with my uncle & he said that my cousin going to UK in a couple month then he ask me if I want to join them? Ofcourse lah :) Bila lagi nak pergi UK kalau bukan tahun ni. I'll be joining them in june or july maybe.. There's a reason why I wanted to go to UK ..
It's because of HIM ..
Hope i can find him. Dapat jumpa @ tengok sekali pun jadilah .. That's all I want.
Minta-minta kita orang jadi pergi UK. Maybe this is my chance to meet him :)
D ... I missed you so much!
Her Story,
{/Yuhuuu Emma Here =) --
( 18:20 )
Hello there,
Hi I'm back =D
Berhabuk sudah blog ni,fuhh fuhh ~
It's 2013 wohoo macam tak percaya je & I'm getting older but still cute haha.
New Year,New Things to Share ..
So let me type ~ type ~ type ~ & u guys read ~ read & read ~ okay ;D
{/Keperluan ~ --
Wednesday 28 March 2012 ( 02:07 )
Nak beli ini,Nak beli itu !
Keperluan oh keperluan kenapa lah tak pernah nak cukup,ada je yang kurang lagi-lagi perempuan memang banyak sangat keperluan yang diperlukan tak payah cakap pun korang mesti dah tau semua tuu.
Rasanya macam tak dapat nak 'saving' je tahun ni (-_-) haihyoo,bulan depan nak amik lesen kereta dah tentulah nak kena pakai duit kan ~
Senarai yang ingin dipenuhi :
1. Sambung belajar.
2. Laptop baru.
3. Camera DSLR Canon.
4. Kereta.
Harap boleh dapat semua yang aku nak,tak kesah lah lambat sikit pun,janji dapat (=
{/Tak kesah --
( 01:50 )
(^_^)
Orang selalu ingat bila da bekerja mesti gaji besar & banyak duit,memang lah banyak kalau kerja macam doktor,peguam or arkitek,ini setakat kerja biasa-biasa kena usaha lebih lah kalau nak dapat gaji atau duit banyak.
Bila da bekerja mula lah banyak tanggungjawab,nak kena bayar ini itu,beli ini itu (-.-) . Walaupun baru nak masuk 2 bulan bekerja dengan gaji yang orang kata kira boleh lah untuk pekerja yang baru & masih belum ada apa-apa pengalaman lagi ni terima jelah =) .
Bila dah bekerja tak semestinya kita terlepas dari tanggungjawab sebagai anak untuk tolong keluarga,baru-baru ni mammy mintak tolong pasal urusan keluarga,kira gaji bulan pertama tuu habis untuk urusan keluarga tapi aku tak kesah pun dah memang sebagai seorang anak kena tolong keluarga. Setakat gaji macam tuu apalah sangat jika nak dibandingkan duit yang dorang da keluarkan dari aku kecik sampailah sekarang ni.
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